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Today I Feel Empty ~ A Painful Perspective

July 29, 2011 by  
Filed under Daily Manna, Monthly Articles

Today I feel empty

Today I feel empty, drained. I read in the lessons of Peter and the early Church in Acts, how they could not help but praise You. In Psalm 145, David says he will exalt You and praise You forever. He says that you are near to all who call on You. My heart knows this. My brain just can’t seem to move in that direction. I hate valleys. Especially the ones I create for myself.

It says in Acts that after they prayed, the walls shook and the Holy Spirit filled them. So I pray. I need some wall shaking to get me to realize again the only way out of this valley is to crawl into Your Hands and let You raise me out. Otherwise I’ll become frustrated trying on my own, more weary and weak. If I praise you Lord, will You draw near? Or will I be drawn to You because I again realize You have never left? Be so close to me that I can feel Your breath on my cheek. Show me again You are all I need.

Great is the Lord and most worthy of praise:
His greatness no one can fathom. Ps 145:3

A Painful Perspective

Give ear to my prayer, O God,
and hide not yourself from my plea for mercy!
Attend to me, and answer me;
I am restless in my complaint and I moan … Psalm 55:1-2

A lady who has reached out and been a friend is having surgery today. I prayed for her and found the answer to my own unspoken prayers. She has been in severe pain and has suffered, yet she kept on living her life and doing His will. I prayed for the pains she had been feeling to leave and the pain of healing to begin.

From experience I know the pain after surgery is a different pain, a hopeful pain. It’s a pain which says the worst is over and the healing has begun. That’s the answer to why I still feel such deep pain and heartaches in my life, even though I am trying to serve God.

As children grow, they are stretched. They can literally have growing pains – aches and tenderness in their joints and spines. One leg may grow a bit faster, or an arm, and temporarily they feel off balance. They wobble.

Because I am a child of a loving God, my “growing pains” are always healing pains. Feeling empty is a good thing because He can fill me up with His mercy. Feeling pain for a sin means I now recognize it as sin. Suffering the pangs of life is more intense because I know this is not my home, my end, my all in all. He didn’t die to erase suffering but to give it meaning.

His breath blows softly on my cheek, now. I feel it as He draws me up in the palms of His might nail-pierced hands to begin this wonderful painful process of being remolded to His will. Let the healing begin.

Julie B Cosgrove

Freelance writer and speaker Julie B Cosgrove leads retreats, workshops, and Bible studies. She writes regularly for several Christian websites and publications. She has published three Bible studies and one fictional piece. Julie has one grown son and lives in Fort Worth, TX with two cats. Visit her website at</a>.


One Response to “Today I Feel Empty ~ A Painful Perspective”
  1. Abner says:

    I love Psalm 143 🙂

    Are you thinking “I feel empty inside“?

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