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I Said “Yes” to Having No Children!

October 2, 2014 by  
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I’m still getting to know God’s heart and the more I get to know Him the more AWESOME I find out He is.  Here’s a little story ~ a true story ~ that reveals more of His loving heart through an experience I had with prayer this summer…

Background story… David, my sweet husband and I like to give the Lord control over much of the big stuff in life. For example, even our meeting, courting, marriage, was a “set-up” from God. David didn’t pick me and I didn’t pick him.  We also like the Lord to decide on His timing for when we have children. We have prayed things like “Bless us with children ~ according to Your will and in Your timing, Lord.”  I often tell David, “I have a feeling the Lord will bless us with kids someday” and he says “me too.”  :o)
At least two people I can remember asked me if I ever prayed for children. I thought about that, and thought “oh yes, but never in a begging type of way.”  I thought about the feeling in my heart. I thought, “If I truly ask God, with all my heart, to bless me with a child … and He said ‘No’, I think my heart would hurt too much.”  Plus I always want His will, not mine. He knows best and ultimately He is in control.
So here is what happened: This summer I had a feeling ~ due to several things that were happening around me from the Holy Spirit~ that God wanted me to ask for a child, yes, EVEN to beg for a child.  I was so excited! I thought maybe His plan for me was to get pregnant soon and that, perhaps, He was waiting for me to sincerely ask.  So before I went to bed, I knelt on the hard bathroom floor and asked God… no, begged God- to the point of tears, for a child. I cried and then I went to bed feeling peaceful.
The next morning, in my quiet time,  I heard from the Lord.  He whispered to my heart and mind very clearly, “Would you give up having a child if you could reach more people for My Kingdom?”  His response was so sweet! How tender His heart is~ He gave me the choice to say “yes” or “no”. This way, my heart didn’t have to ache. Praise the Lord He speaks to His children through His Word and through His Holy Spirit! I love that He idn’t give me a “yes or no” answer. Actually, I wasn’t really thinking that He would speak to me. I just thought I would get pregnant within a month or so.  But, Wow, He spoke soon on that one!
With tears streaming down my cheeks, I answered: “Yes, I will give up having a child if it means winning more souls for Your kingdom.”  (I am also in tears as I type this.)  I was in awe of His voice and His tender love for me.  I could have said “no” and with a child I could still reach people for God’s Kingdom. As we know there are many moms and dads who work for God’s Kingdom. Yet, because I love God more than anything, I want to say “Yes” to Him in anything He wants me to do.  I want the Lord to use me in ANY way to help people know of His unfailing love. Since I said “Yes”, He has given me a strong desire to write again.  Also, He is answering my prayer for to be involved in writing and women’s ministry in greater ways than I could have even thought of.
If you happen to be reading this and you have a child or children, praise the Lord! God says “Children are a gift from the Lord; they are a reward from Him.” (Psalm 127:3). I love true miraculous stories of women who have had children way past normal child-bearing years, like Sarah and Elizabeth. Praise God for stories that give people hope. And praise the Lord that the ultimate hope, Jesus Christ, is available to anybody who calls on Him~ no matter your age, no matter what you have been involved with in your past.
If you are reading this and you have a dream or prayer that you are praying and you are not receiving, it’s possible the Lord has a different plan for you. What I have discovered in my walk with Christ is that when I desire God more than ANYTHING, He is already everything I need. He gives me way more than I could have ever hoped for or imagined, when I just want HIM. I often say that if we can see things through His eyes, we would be thanking Him a lot more often and even thanking Him for the things in life that are difficult.
I want to say “Yes” to God’s plans for me, even if that means giving up my precious dreams. One of the greatest prayers of surrender, “God, not my will but Your will be done.”  Are you willing to surrender and say “Yes” to everything God calls you to do? My prayer for you is that you readily accept this heartfelt challenge!



Amber Paulsen is on ministry staff with Artists in Christian Testimony International. She and her husband’s ministry department under ACT Int’l, Facing Goliath, serves more than 1000 poor and homeless people each month. Amber’s heart is for the poor and often forgotten and women’s ministry. Her testimony is one of a Savior who fights for you, heals from deep lies, and loves tenderly. She desires women to know their beauty and value in God’s eyes and to live surrendered and pleasing lives to the Lord.  Amber and her husband, David, live in Omaha, Nebraska. 
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2 Responses to “I Said “Yes” to Having No Children!”
  1. Amber, thank you for this beautiful testimony of desiring God’s best for your life. How can He not bring you joy when your desire is to be faithful and obedient? I look forward to hearing what God does through you to reach many fur His kingdom.

  2. Amber, I just wanted to let you know this article is amazing. I appreciate your willingness to give up a dream to serve the Lord. God is so sweet, and so tender. Yet He is still Lord.

    I am single, divorced (I was abandoned by my wife), and childless. Childlessness does not bother me as I am free to keep serving the Lord more, and teaching His people, making disciples. I would love to be married again someday, to a woman who has an attitude like yours. Your story gives me hope. God bless you.

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